Where to start...just running...

It seems that I've got so many things in my head that I can't choose one thing to write about. Funny how that's happened to me. I'm worried I can't put to words what I'm feeling lately. I believe that there's a need to "dump" out all the mess sometimes. Sometimes just to let it out and let it go and some of it needs to just be sorted out. People do it all the time differently in their unique ways. Some write, some write songs, poetry, some beat on a heavy bag...[whatever it is you do.]. I've got both I guess. My mind is filled with a blanket of junk...and I can't figure out where to begin to "dump" of all the excessive thoughts in my mind. So I'm going to tackle this and battle it out...or in this case, write it out...

I've been seeking God through most of my "junk"...most of the time it's just what I've decided as my "insecurities" surfacing through my gauntlet of "thinking to much". [ugh...] I mean it happens..."thinking to much" that is...

The mind is a wild place. It can lead you up and down and in all sorts of crazy directions if you let it get the best of you. Crazy I know, because you'd figure it's your mind and you'd be able to control it. The mind is an place of manifestation. You can use your imagination, you can dwell [dangerous], and you seek reasoning.

The mind is a battleground in itself...looking at one of my favorite bible verses 2 Corinthians 10:3-5 it says this:

³ For though we live in the world, we do not wage war as the world does. ⁴ The weapons we fight with are not the weapons of the world. On the contrary, they have divine power to demolish strongholds. ⁵ We demolish ARGUMENTS and every PRETENTIONS that sets itself up against the knowledge of God, and we take captive every THOUGHT to make it obedient to Christ. 

The last part I want to lead off of with that we DEMOLISH arguments [disagreements] and every pretensions [false intentions or false unsupportable qualities] and take those THOUGHTS to make it submissive to Christ Jesus! The Devil will work in all sorts of ways to disrupt your joy. To throw you off all out of wack. Its those times when we let the Devil wreck us is when he's made a small victory over you. Let's be real. It's going to happen, but it's how you manage to overcome is what's to look towards. In our weakness the Lord has made us STRONG. We are LIONS! We're not timid creatures, LIONS! If you don't get your head nodding from that, get your neck checked cause we're LIONS! The only pride we love is a PRIDE FULL OF LIONS!


[I went and ran 4 miles and so I had some thinking time...this is what I came up with...]

• I've got this idea of a movie in my head...where I'm playing the lead role [of course]. 
• In this movie:
• I want to be the hero
• Save some people along the way
• Bust out in some random song
• Be a warrior
• Handsome
• A man of integrity

and...Of course romantically get the girl in the end. What a typical movie eh? lol

[Took a few minutes to think and soak...repeat if necessary]

I took a moment and thought about my "movie" thing...I asked God about it...and these are well, answers He gave me...

• In some aspects I'm a "hero" to someone out there, but not that I've got super powers, but that I could have helped someone in need. 
• God's given me the good news to share so I can potentially lead someone to be save by God's blood. :)
• I do bust out in random song from time to time...ha. 
• God's given me the name Warrior along with the spirit of one. 
• I hope she thinks I'm handsome...haha. 
• I continually pray for my integrity, because that's what matters most is when no one is looking... 

and well I can say I'm blessed, dating one of the most awesome girl a guy could ask for. Yup I'm blessed, indeed. :)

Lord, I know I'm not worthy of all You've given me. But You love me anyway, no matter what I say or do. I greatly and deeply thank you for the blessings You've placed in my life. I want to be a stronger man for Your Kingdom. I know the things You have for me a greater than I can imagine. I pray for Your guidance, encouragement, and Your grace in all my endeavors. Lord be my center always, Amen.